Please help, I need a Mental Facility?

You've had some difficult experiences and it takes courage and even commitment to share it with others. A psychiatric facility may or may not be the right environment to begin to deal with your pain and cycle of self destructive behavior. This is really something you need to discuss with a metal health care professional. It's entirely possible you could experience some improvement by seeing a therapist regularly. Since you have many things going on it might be useful to pick one or two that cause you the most distress and start there. If you you try to tackle it all at once it might be too overwhelming. As is often the case with medical issues the best advice is to see a health care provider and make an informed decision.